02.01.2026 – the polarity of me.
i’m someone who aspires to live by my own rules, to not be governed by any other. the thing is all my life has been governed or preset by others. first, by family expectations. then, by societal expectations. into adulthood, by social circles and girlfriends. by lovers, by professional relationships. in an age where any good, service and opinion can be made to order, how can we maintain a sense of individuality or meaning? that is what keeps me up at night. what do we strive towards? i set my standards. in some areas, i can be casual and light, freespirited and leisurely. in others, i can be insurmountably difficult.. ambitious.. and unforgiving. sometimes i find myself insufferable. why do i demand the things that i do for myself? the only thing i know is i do trust myself, and i trust my process.

02.08.2026 – karaoke!!🎤♪♫♪ i don’t wanna miss a thing | aerosmith

02.12.2026 – our neuroticisms.
at the end of the day, we just want to be around the ones who get us, right? your neuroticism aligns with mine. your ocd. my ocd. your ticks. mine too. or if not aligned, at least understood. seen. not questioned, confronted and held hostage. not judged, not held to expectation. just sharing space and presence. allowance to breathe, settle into our thoughts. sit in our discomforts. together. and then round it all out with a belly laugh. at something insignificant that cements the moment and bond. we tease at our imperfections and revel in our humanity. ah, there it is. a shared moment of humanity. thank you.