02.01.2026 – the polarity of me.
i’m someone who aspires to live by my own rules, to not be governed by any other. the thing is all my life has been governed or preset by others. first, by family expectations. then, by societal expectations. into adulthood, by social circles and girlfriends. by lovers, by professional relationships. in an age where any good, service and opinion can be made to order, how can we maintain a sense of individuality or meaning? that is what keeps me up at night. what do we strive towards? i set my standards. in some areas, i can be casual and light, freespirited and leisurely. in others, i can be insurmountably difficult.. ambitious.. and unforgiving. sometimes i find myself insufferable. why do i demand the things that i do for myself? the only thing i know is i do trust myself, and i trust my process.